Aw poor you sounds like you're really sick bad

I've told you before dude. The cure for negativity is positivity. I'm not kidding. IT WORKS. Helaris and all them will probably agree with me.

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Walking on two legs has nothing to do with intelligence. - Lord Kayoss

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that doesn't make any sense though..

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"Hope is the denial of reality. It is the carrot dangled before the draft horse to keep him plodding along in a vain attempt to reach it."
'Are you saying we shouldn't hope?'
"I'm saying we should remove the carrot and walk forward with our eyes open"

Yes it does. Maybe I should borrow you my book that talks about it that my mom gave me when I was all depressed as a kid. Probably saved my life. I guess it's kind of like karma; if you think good things, you'll feel good and other people will act friendly towards you but if you act/think negatively, then that's what you're gonna get. It's true. I never fully believed in it before I moved to Vancouver, but it's amazing how your attitude can effect other people on the bus. I noted this especially when I first moved here; I really wanted people to sit next to me and talk to me, so you know what happened? People did! But when I didn't really care as much anymore, people didn't. If I concentrate even a little, I can still get people to sit next to me; which is all I really want most of the time anyway; it's sneaky, but it's how I get to be near people. Also, it was only when I really thought that I wanted a boyfriend maybe that men started noticing me earlier this year. It's the law of attraction. I always want to feel good and well, so while I might feel icky for a while, in the end I get to feel the way I want. But I have to be really careful because of my anxiety; a few negative thoughts can be enough to trip my mind into negativity and thus an attack. It's funny, but I actually get mad at myself when I'm unhappy, saying 'damn it stop being so emo; be happy.' It isn't instant, but eventually I do become happy once more.

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Walking on two legs has nothing to do with intelligence. - Lord Kayoss

Mah website--> [link]

Falcolf is absolutely correct. If you want to attract negativity, be negative and vice versa. I tend to enter really depressed, pessimistic states and they become vicious cycles of pain and discomfort. The bitter cloud of thoughts and energy that hangs around me, what's called an aura, affects other people adversely and drives them away. In fact, I'm so close to my friends and family that when I feel down, I drag them down into sickness too, therefore I must keep my chin up, for their sakes as much as mine. Illness comes of being negative and having weakened defences, which really doesn't help when you're struggling to cope. But all bad spells pass eventually.

Like a wise soul told me 7 years ago: "The path of life is incredibly bumpy, but that only makes the smooth parts sweeter."

It's true, and the more you can appreciate and value the happy parts, the better able to cope with the sad parts you'll become. I know you can do it. You're a very hard worker.

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Ni Ascherenh.

Hope you get better soon ;.;

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"Here is what I want you to do...
First, grab a potatoe. Second, wrap the potatoe in foil.
Third, light yourself on fire.
This way you're dead and I have a baked pototoe..." -husband to ex-friend.

As much as I'd like to believe in the whole "positive thoughts make your life positive", I can't. My sickness has nothing to do with my outlook on life - it's happened in all sorts of conditions. I have a very weakened immune system, and have been sick for a large part of my life. If simply being positive would have stopped that, then I would not have been sick so much when I was younger, before I became so pessimistic.

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"Hope is the denial of reality. It is the carrot dangled before the draft horse to keep him plodding along in a vain attempt to reach it."
'Are you saying we shouldn't hope?'
"I'm saying we should remove the carrot and walk forward with our eyes open"

I know all about thinking something makes it happen - I do it myself, but usually the opposite to you. I don't want people to sit next to me. So they don't.
And this is perfectly fine by me.

What I don't know how to do is to change the way I think.

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"Hope is the denial of reality. It is the carrot dangled before the draft horse to keep him plodding along in a vain attempt to reach it."
'Are you saying we shouldn't hope?'
"I'm saying we should remove the carrot and walk forward with our eyes open"

WELL. I suggest a dosage of Miyavi to make you less pessimistic D<

or SUG - I scream party! Or Psycho le Cemu?! *eye spasm*

I'm sorry. Prescribing music isn't... exactly.. doctoral D:

*hugs* I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time, I can completely relate there. But hey! At least I'll be in the Coast relatively soon :3 I'm just hoping the Swine Flu doesn't break out into a pandemic :/ (lol thats a half joke.)


Sorry I'm never online ;-; There's a lot of stuff going on .-.

But I know its kind of cliched saying, things DO eventually get better! Sometimes it just takes longer *sighs* -_-;! But we will get there! *throws Macaroni bits in the air*

awww, get better soon
I took notes for you in art history, but I left my laptop in my locker >.> urgh!

About the negative thingy...I feel like that too D: and there is nothing you can really do about being sick except to get better xC

I guess its time for us to look back on your accomplishments;
- you have superb grades (90% ISN'T A BAD GRADE mmmKAY?)
- you have great friends (we luv you)
- you are a great cook
- you have a kitty
- you live in a great part of the world
- you aren't clouded by stupid things like Twilight, Jonas Bros etc.
- you have a mom and dad that love you
- you WILL become RICH because of your awesomeness (not a 'look back' but whatever)

Honestly, I think you are one of the best people I have ever met. You are intelligent, helpful and can think. Even though you may distance from people, you are a great friend to the people you do know. Quality over quantity, I say! I sincerely mean all of this!

What ever happens, we all luv you